27.7.07

It's been a really sucky day. So sucky that I don't feel like typing it all out. Sometimes I wish there's some camera filming about my life and writing it all out for me. Then I wouldn't need to type so much. But I just wanna type cos' I wanna let something out. Something's so tight inside my heart that I feel super uncomfortable. Maybe it's what I couldn't let go.

Was late for school today. Presentation at 8; I woke up at 8.30. Called a cab and reach school at 9.05. Was really late but luckily my group was presenting halfway. I came just on time and resumed the presentation for my section. Hope I don't get marked down for this. While I was presenting, she looked at me. The same eyes that I have always seen. Lonely looking eyes, with the desire to find someone for inner comfort. But what I known was that she already had someone else; there's no need for me in her life anymore. I don't know what's going on within me. Maybe I'm just thinking too much. Maybe she isn't feeling lonely, but it's just how her eyes are like. Those watery eyes that sparkle and claimed me before.

I heard something from the TV today. It says:

If you love someone, you'll want to take care of the person, share her burdens, and protect her.

It feels so damn true. As if something has just hit me in the heart. Some bad memories, good memories, all suddenly shoots back into my mind. Maybe I just want that feeling back. Maybe it's just a guy's ego that wants to protect someone.

Chatted with Beatrice today. After a really long time since I last chatted with her. She seems so good and happy. Well, maybe she's happier the way she is now. Someone said sorry to me today. Although it's not that person whom I hope would be, but I would like to say, "It's ok, I didn't put it to heart". Just hope that you'll be stay happy and sweet like how you used to be.