It took me so long to realise what's love. Seems like I understood this idea in the past, and was sucessfully able to fall in love. But now, it seems like I no longer understand the word love. What is love? What makes you fall in love with someone? Why are people able to fall in love with someone of the same sex?

I came to the conclusion that love is about giving it all to someone unconditionally, despite whoever the person might be. As long as you love her, you'll give your everything, even if she's the ugliest woman in the world. Of course, this idealogy most probably has been knocked out of me since I came into experience with the outside world. Outside of what I was brought up in. Now that looks matters too, I don't find love anymore. I can't fall in love with anyone now. There's something wrong with me. I've gotta find out what's wrong and figure it out now. Otherwise, I'll be stuck here forever. I need to get back the feeling I had in the past. In those relationships that I really had fun, that I really loved someone truely from the bottom of my heart.

A really nice song: I wanna tell you that I love you

Out there in the quiet of the night
In the stars, and moon
We both believe there's something on our minds
We won't admit, but it is true
You look at me, I look away

I wanna tell you what I'm feeling but I don't know how to start
I wanna tell you but now I'm afraid that you might break my heart
Oh why should anything so easy ever be so hard to do
I wanna tell you what I'm feeling and to say that, I love you

I practiced all the things that I could say
Line by line, every word
I tell myself today's the big big day
But everytime, I lose my nerves
I look at you, you look away

I wanna tell you what I'm feeling but I don't know how to start
I wanna tell you but now I'm afraid that you might break my heart
Oh why should anything so easy ever be so hard to do
I wanna tell you what I'm feeling and to say that, I love you

Why, why do you turn away
Oh it must be, you're afraid like me
I try, but I can't pretend that I
To feel for you, the way I do
Can't you see?

I wanna tell you what I'm feeling but I don't know how to start
I wanna tell you but now I'm afraid that you might break my heart
Oh why should anything so easy ever be so hard to do
I wanna tell you what I'm feeling and to say that, I love you