Was finally talking to pat. Seems like the idea was brought clearly forth enough. I'm simply not someone part of her life I guess. A friend that distant away.

The day was kinda boring. Gotta do more stuff to spice things up. Games and such makes me so bored. Books are tiresome to read. I wanna just die.

Hopes and dreams drive me forth,
Love or hate, I guess it's both.
I wonder what's wrong, what's bothering me.
Life's tiresome, too bored to live.


You don't like me, it's natural.
But I still wait, the painful feel.
What keeps me on, is pure loneliness.
I wish I can feel your heartfelt closeness.


Maybe it's fate, maybe it's luck.
I don't want to see you anymore.
Cos' it's painful, cos' it sucks.
Only if you would love me thee.


I dreamt of you, I think of you.
Every moment, every second.
Thinking of what I can do.
Something that would make you mine.


If only life's better,
And love's stronger.
But I know it won't come.
Your love won't come.