"I'm so bored. I'll just die."

I heard this phrase from this show I'm watching. Depicts exactly what I'm feeling right now. In the show, the guy is an intellect, extremely clever and has really good friends. But he feels bored deep inside, and wants to die. I wonder if that's the life of an intellect, feeling too bored with life. I also noticed that he hasn't had a girlfriend. Maybe he couldn't find someone who loves him. I always believed that love makes someone un-bored. I guess he doesn't feel that way at that moment. I don't feel love at the moment too. Sometimes i wish humans hadn't evolved so much. Humans in the past are much more stupid than humans now. A species that is evolving so much, that it's kinda out of control. Such an evolution is actually undesirable. If the world is filled with people that knows how to use brains only, earth will crumble.

I read this book about The Change. It talks about earth being reverted back to the past, as all machinery becomes obslete and unfucntionable. Then people start to train their brawls and use bows and arrows and broadswords to fight. The storyline seems good, but the writer sucks so much that I gave up reading after the first few chapters.

I just feel like dying. Life's just so bored. Somehow, today I felt as if she has given me a definite answer. She just doesn't like me at all. I don't know what's the things that make people unable to fall in love with me. I don't know the ways that girls fall for, the things that they see that makes them feel attracted. I just suppose that my life is supposed to be this bored. So damn bored that I don't know what I can do with it. Maybe, in her heart I'm at least secondary. Maybe tertiary. Maybe not even in the hierachy. I wish I can hear her say it out loud. Cos' I want to know what she feels about me. And I don't know how to ask.

说你爱我。说你要和我一起走下去。I'll Just Die.