Alright. Now for the challenger's camp. Quite fun camp, no redundant stuff like the FOC camp, which makes people feel bored and sleepy. Challenger's probably intended for less people, for more fun. I saw this girl immediately when I went to the camp. Fell in love with her immediately. I thought I had a chance, I thought things went well, but afterall, it's probably just an illusion, a misconception, a mistake, a misunderstanding. Things didn't turn quite well from day 2 onwards. She kinda jumped away, away from me, away from my approach, away from my words. I didn't know what to do, as always, and I stupidly let her leave from my grasp. Maybe I lost my chance, just like this.

DAY 1 - That night, I slept badly. Cos' I was thinking of what to do, how should I approach her, to woo her, to tell her that I liked her. I thought of what she could be thinking, cos' she told me she couldn't sleep too, but refused to walk with me. Wonder if it's a hint to ask me to get lost, or it's just that she's tired.

DAY 2 - She chose to partner someone else. I felt really sad. Went to sit beside her occasionally, only to realise she choose to sit further away, as if to avoid me if I asked or said anything. Maybe I was thinking too much. Finally I talked to her, but things didn't seem to improve at all. That night, she slept, and talked to me with that shield around her. As if it's a natural instinct to protect yourself from other predators. Disdraughted, I left her alone, occasionally trying to talk to her, to salvage situation. But I guess I flunked.

DAY 3 - I looked at her while she slept, and smiled at her cute expression while asleep. Telling myself not to fall deeper, I looked away, and talked to other girls, trying to decieve myself, what my heart is telling me. It's just 2 days that I've met her, and things couldn't have gotten so bad. But maybe, I'm just not her type. She probably likes handsome guys, not guys like me who're ugly and with a scarred face. She probably thinks that she's too pretty for me. How I wish I said "I love you" then. It's over, I guess. Probably I wouldn't see her ever again.

I guess most people from my group in challengers knew who she is, if they knew who I am. I just hope to see her again, to see her smile, that smile she gave me everytime I looked at her. I'll be happy. I wish you liked me too.

God, tell me why I don't deserve her.